In My Head Again

Okay so now that I mulled over my previous thoughts and every other thought that has occurred since. It seems I have been overly dramatic or at least I overemphasized certain thoughts that were running through my head at the time....

Okay so in one of my previous blogs I said that I loved a girl named Brittney but I don't think I do. I like her, and i like alot of things about her but I always seem to fall prey to over exaggeratted emotions. Now then I don't know if i do love her or not but considering that I am questioning it I will go with the not. So now that I have given my self time to think everything over again, she is just a really good friend. I am just closer to her then I am with most girls, I think it is more of her personality and the way she is that is so appealing. Then again there are factors of her that are not so appealing, I will not go into detail.

So as of now I have decided with myself that i do not love anyone as of the current moment, excluding my family, that is a different kind of love anyway.

So the point of this is that I have a very impulsive soul and i tend to over emphazise my emotions (just to let you know I am a horrible speller =) so having said that i just want to feel like I got something off my chest. I think i did this because rethinking and re-reading what I wrote previous made me think over if my emotions where that strong.....

.... and then this all leads to my neccesity to be able to detach very easily from people, most importantly women. Because my emotions, especially those of love and lust are so irratic I have to be able to detach. I do get very attached very easily, although for the most part I don't display any of it, at least I try not to, I don't know why. I am lost now and can't remeber if there was another point I was going to....(excuss excessive grammer and spelling errors I am writing directly into the post thing so I have no spell check and this is sort of just a impulsive writing moment and it was spur of the moment... oh well.)